Life Happens

Yesterday the senior class of my high school graduated. The day was full of smiles, tears, hugs, and memories. For me, it was emotional saying "see ya later" to all my senior friends. It's hard to let go and say goodbye, but life happens. As soon as those graduation caps flew into the air, I officially became a senior in high school. Senior. Last year. Big dogs. Here comes the senioritous.... NOT. I have 364 days to grow up, figure out my next four years, apply for colleges, increase my SAT and ACT scores by 100s and 8 points. That isn't easy to do. I still have 2 1/2 days of school left to pass my final exams and get ready for a summer of a lifetime; the last summer before senior year. I'll be spending my time working at my internship in Jacksonville, living without my parents, and figuring life out. Life happens. It's scary and exciting to think about my time away from little ole Habersham County. I can only hope and pray this summer teaches me that life isn't so bad. Yes, I do understand that life has it's downsides, but I can only thank God for another beautiful day of this life. Life happens. In 12 days I will be 17 years old. Whoopee. I can finally see R-Rated movies without a parent hahah! I have a single year to figure out life and enjoy it. I have a year to create a life I love, but I have a year for God to lead, guide, and direct me to the place I belong! Jeremiah 29:11 allows me to sit back and relax because the big man in the sky, well, he knows what he's doing. 

Life Happens. It's time for me to hop on the saddle, grab life by the reigns, and enjoy the ride! 

Marcia Louise Hall 

5/18/14  

Let me share some class

No matter what you do, you belong to God. It's that simple! 

Christians today have this mindset that when sin takes over a numberous amount of times, they feel lost and alone. That's where we as Christians are wrong. You sin? Talk to God. You hurt? Gods right beside you holding you. You cry? Let god be the shoulder you need. You feel worried? Breathe. Let God take control. Now, I know it's easier said than done, but that's what being a Christian is all about. You mess up! With the forgiveness of God you are freed from all sin because the only Jesus, Savior, Son of GOD, died for you. That's not luck, that's loyalty. What's important to you? That's a question my Preacher asked in Sunday's lesson. The reading came from Matthew 22. In the passage, the commandments were written: Love The Lord, your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your kind. That is the greatest commandment. The second was, "love your neighbor as yourself." Jesus is our neighbor. He loved us enough to give his life. When you think about what Jesus did, understand the value in other people! Don't discriminate, don't tolerate, just associate! Love one another. Love yourself! To love others, you must first find time to love yourself. Through God, loving yourself can be the easiest and hardest thing to do! Don't get so caught up in your worldy body, because when you die and go to heaven, all worldly figured will be gone. You will have a beautiful soul... And that soul will shine brighter and farther than any other! So this week, if you feel down, sad, or alone, just remember what is important to you. Love. 

Classy 

2:24:14

I'm done...

Being nice is the easiest and the hardest thing I do. I am a giving person. I try to make others happy before myself most always, but recently I feel the need to stop being so nice. I am a friendly girl with a pretty good head on my shoulders. I just get really tired of doing and doing and giving and trying for people who claim to care about me, but in reality just kind of use me up. Today I say I'm done; I'm finished; finé; final. I deserve better friends and a lot more respect than what people show me. I listen to everyone's problems but no one seems to find the time to listen to mine. I hold it all in and then I blow up on the people who love me most, my family. If you're reading this, please remember to be loving and honest with people. If you complain a lot to your friend, be sure to remind yourself that your friend needs you, YOU, to listen to them as well. Know where to draw the line. I'm drawing mine... 

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Happy V********* Day 

Marsh

2/14

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Thankful

You really have made me realize how thankful I am! You have let me just walk into your life and make you smile and laugh everyday, and that's something I will always be thankful for. I'm thankful to finally have the opportunity to talk to you every day. I've known you for so many years. I know I don't see you much, but I'm excited to have a face to face relationship with you! God has timing right when it's the best time. For now. I will keep praying for you and for your precious mamma. I'll be here for you to talk to or just be someone to look at. I wish I could make our friendship our relationship longer, but God knows what he's doing. You're wonderful young man. You truly are. No wrong in your rights... You've always been approved.... And that's something I should have taken more seriously. Thank you for what you do. You are so strong inside and out. Gods plans may not be your plans but I'll always be here for you no matter the situation. You are the best kind of special I've ever met. You are my kind of special. No one can  break the friendship we have. You are the real dills. 

Everyone else

Everyone else seems so happy. I mean I'm happy, but it just gets old having people ask you the same questions and you give the same answers because you have the same predictable life. No I do not have a boyfriend. No I do not know where I want to go to school. No I am not for sure what I want to major in. No I don't think I'll be getting married next. No I don't need a boyfriend right now. No I don't .... No I don't... 

Seems pretty negative right? Well it does affect me saying no to the same question because it seems like nothing has changed for me. Nothing drastic enough to change my life in some way. I know I'll be saying yes to people instead of no. It all will just continue to take time. I'll continue to say no until No's turn into sweet blissful Yes's. 

For I know the plans I have for you... - God 

Jer. 29:11 

Why not?

Why can't someone see me the way they see other girls. I swear I feel like it's only me. All my friends are seen differently. I'm always just another good pal or buddy. I get so fed up with being another guys buddy. I love having guy friends, don't get me wrong, but I don't like being so different all the time. I mean can you not just notice me? Am I that unique? Is it

My body? Is it my weight? My hair? My face? My height? My small hands? My eye color? Is it my personality? My characteristics? What is it about me that turns guys into instant friend zone material? Do I not wear enough makeup? Do I wear too much? Do I dress pretty enough? Do I make you stop and stare? I mean come on! It's just the amount of fairness in this situation is low. I don't know what to do but to be myself! Why should I have to think about changing when someone could just notice me and smile at me? Being unique is hard... But I wouldn't want to be anyone else. I know someone is out there looking... But I don't know who. I jump to conclusions and I assume people look at me in the way I want and I find out that's all false. Everyone finds their someone and I am left alone. Why? Why can't you pick the right jewel out of the jewel box! It's not that hard! Just find the shining star... That's me. I've been waiting... I'll keep waiting. 

- thanks to Ryan for being such a good friend. Your girlfriend is blessed my friend. I'm thankful you aren't worried about having a best

Friend that's female and a girlfriend too. Keep kickin' dragon boy. 

12/19/13

Seriously?

God works in mysterious ways. I sinned and then today the sermon was spot on. I sang for Jesus I spoke for Jesus and I listened to the words of my pastor and heard god talking to me through him. It's exactly what I needed. Short sweet and to the point. Why have I spent so much time worrying about my future and relationships when god has it under control. I have had someone grow so strong with my help and I could only help because of god. This person treats me better than anyone has. He has been by my side through almost everything for five years almost. He may not fit the standards of my family, but he is a gentleman. He has changed for the better. Practice what you preach is something I know I need to work on. Don't talk the talk just walk the walk. I need to be the examples I set for others. I need to stop pushing people away when they are the ones who love me and care about me the most. I need to stop seeing the good in everyone because not everyone has good. I need to think less and pray more. I need to just do! I need to stop staying up so late and stop trying to find someone to talk to when I'm lonely. My time will come when it comes. For now, I just need to be happy with what I have and thankful for an all loving and all forgiving God who put me here in the first place. His guidance is what I need and his love I crave. I know I'm not supposed to be a Luke warm Christian. I'm also subtle about my faith. I share my thoughts only here because I know others out there who may read this can possibly relate. You have a purpose. Someone out there that is your soul mate, he/she will come when The Lord says it's time. That person feels the way you do. They can picture you in their head and how wonderful you will be with them. Just you wait my dears. I no longer have to react to the devil. My reaction will be no more and I will turn to my friends, family, and of course my bible and God. I may be a sinner but I try to change my ways always. It's a struggle but stop fighting the crowd and let the crowd move you. 

This picture isn't mine but I added a saying that is close to my heart. Maybe it will mean something to you too. Much love your way! Happy December! 

12/1/13 

The struggle

It's like I can't even let go. I can't repent because I can't stop. Does the devil has his hold on me? I'm scared because this temptation has the tightest grip on me. Why do I do this to myself? Why do I do it to others I care about? Why is this temptation I hold in my body so hard to get out! It's poison for me... For now. I've been told this temptation I have is normal... And then others have told me to FLEE! I want to do both, but God doesn't do "both". I feel like I'm being tested.... Like he's just throwing the temptation at me or the devil is idk anymore and that's not good at all. I want to repent, but I'm actually scared. 

Is there something in your life that you constantly fight yourself over? My struggle is temptation! Just know that God is there to guide you. As for me and probably many others, I (we) are confused in the moment. We should seek God now More than EVER! 

-I know my posts are religious, but I'd really like some feedback on how I'm doing! If you read my blog then thank you! You don't understand how much it means for someone to read my thoughts and maybe understand them. 

Why?

Temptation is thrown at me every single day. It's a problem that I face as a teenager... Just like all the others. My faith is distant... And that kills me the most because I know it. I'm Luke warm... I'm the Luke warm Christian that sees her mistakes and continues to make them over and over. Empty promises. They are out in front of me every time I talk to someone or begin to "trust". I don't understand why I fall in the traps of the devil... Or why any of us do. I understand I'm not perfect, but lately I haven't exactly tried. The influences in my life are either great or not so awesome. At least I'm clean... Yes sir I'm clean. That's the greatest gift I can receive. I can wake up without the regret of giving myself to someone because baby that's gonna be for my future husband. I can wake up sober every morning because alcohol is not appealing to be really. I can wake up right in the head because I don't find enjoyment in popping pills or those who do so. I don't smoke and I don't party. I am clean. I am not perfect. I crave attention from the male gender at times. It's because of my lack of being "noticed" by guys. Always been one of the boys... And although I've learned to accept it and actually enjoy it, I still want to be called beautiful and I want to have someone look at me the way boys who like girls, look at girls, do. Not in the disrespectful way, but in the "she's beautiful inside and out" kind of way. This is the temptation. I think I'm afraid of dating. I'm afraid of being taken advantage of, yet I do it on a weekly basis without knowing. I talk to guys. I talk... They talk... We talk. We talk for a long time but we never date. He's never my boyfriend and I'm never his girlfriend. Ugh I don't know... Or understand because I know god has a plan for me but I don't know what it is yet. I just want to find out... I just want to find me. I want to take life by the reigns and follow the light god shines down for me... But with all these distractions and temptations it's hard. God made me a sweet person. As conceded as that may sound it is true. Unless you aren't respectful towards me, I usually can't be mean to you. So when temptation smacks me in the face... I can't say no. I can't back away. I can't stand up for what I want because I don't want to be lonely. Honestly I make myself sick at times... Because I know I shouldn't lower my standards... But feeling like no one likes you can make a girl become sad and confused. Maybe he's out there... Maybe ill be single and adopt a kid some day... Maybe ill be some sort of missionary. Maybe ill be a nutritionist who travels around the world to help kids and adults... Maybe ill have my own family. Maybe ill be a business woman who saves the world... Nah I can't save the world. Maybe ill be making up for lost time with god... Whatever I do I just need to figure myself out... And trust things will be alright. There is a rhyme and a reason for things and I need to plant that in my thick skull. I'm definitely my fathers daughter... And I pray I get back on track as my Lord's daughter... I pray. 

Hebrews 4:15 

Remember you're loved. 

-Marcia 

A little growing up...

A little growing up never hurt anyone. Honestly though, I do it each day. Today though I went through a little rough patch. This patch of roughness caused me to think hard. Haha I don't like to think hard, but yes I did indeed. I had a little talk with someone today. I then proceeded to make this person realize that he/she (not going to say) is very deserving and wonderful. I want to share the same words of encouragement and love with you all who read my blog! Basically I am going to tell you to grow up. I am saying this out of all the goodness from my heart( and trust me there is a lot of goodness I try to share not tooting my own horn, it's how God made me). I'm telling you to understand how to grow up and realize that you deserve love and happiness and friends and family that love you more than you know. I'm telling you that you can finally put down the things that get you away from the real world like drugs and alcohol and razor blades and chemicals that just take you away to what you think is better but is not at all. Doing these things are in no way shape or form beneficial to you or your health. Grow up. Grow up because you can leave your hurt and lonely on the hanger and create this whole new life that you call your own. Change the things you have always longed to change because you have the chance when you grow up. Grow up because opportunities will be smacking you on the face and you'll have to either shut them out or jump right in. Grow up because you need to get it through your thick skull that you're worth something in this world. Grow up because having patience and being unselfish is going to make you a better, stronger, happier, and wiser person. Grow up because you need to. Grow up because you seek to. Grow up because you deserve to. Just remember this please... And if you haven't read it amongst the rest of the words I typed.... Grow up and you're loved.

Marcia Louise
4/17/13

Don't lose faith...

I try. I try to keep my faith and keep a positive attitude. It's hard. I try to have hope in my eyes and my heart. I try to let my happy self shine. I try to remember things get better and with God all things are possible. Sometimes you get down in the dumps and you think all is lost. You get in this funk and every possible thing you've ever done that made you hurt comes to mind. It is not fun. I try to let it out and once it's out, I just breathe. I turn on some music and look in the mirror and if I cry... I cry. I finish and try to smile and usually it turns out ok. Things get to me easily. Once words have smacked me in the face and I know they're real, I lose it. One thing I will try my hardest not to lose is my faith. With faith I can do all things. I can sing. I can smile. I can laugh and cry. I can believe. I can dream... I just pray my faith continues so I can turn my dreams into reality. I believe things happen for a reason and when the reason comes before me... Ill try to be ready. Don't lose faith. Keep your head up princess because you were made to move mountains. Just keep on trying and stay forever beautiful.

Remember you're loved.

Tonight.

Tonight I lie here in my bed. I lie under the covers and rest my head on a pillow. I smile. Tonight I SMILE! Tonight I think about things I like things I love things I don't like or love... And things I want to change and need to change. Tonight I wonder and imagine life... Tonight I paint pretty pictures in my mind and bold beautiful words in my heart. Tonight all is well. Tonight I realize life goes on... Life gets better... Life can taste so sweet. Tonight I realize life is forever going to have ups and downs and I do believe my god in heaven wouldn't place downs on people if he knew it wouldn't help them grow. When you are down you can either have patience or become aggravated. You can worry or relax. Tonight I realize that we learn to accept the downs in our life so when good things come, we become happier and full of joy. Tonight I smile for all in my life is going to be just fine. I smile for the heartache and that I know it will soon fade and I will learn to be just fine. I will learn to follow my lord and do as he leads me. It's what I always try to do. Tonight Im not hard on myself. Tonight I'm saying "Marcia you'll make it sweet girl". Tonight... Tonight I pray and I thank God for all his love and glory. Tonight I feel whole again.

Tonight I love.

Life.

Today was weird. Today I felt something I haven't in a while... Relief and heartache. Relief because some things are off my chest. Heartache because reality has kicked in and all the things I thought I once had, I am losing slowly. I also gained a sense of calmness. God has put his hand on my heart to calm me and tell me it's ok. Tonight I drink my hot tea and cry. I get out all these feelings I've kept inside. Tonight I think and I dream. Tomorrow I push through and I keep going with my head high. Life has happened today. Life has showed me so much in a number of hours and all I can do is be blessed and overwhelmed. My best friend always tells me that everything in life is either a lesson or a blessing. I have had my share of both today. I'm blessed for many things. I've learned a lesson... I have to keep going and realize life is going to push me down. I have to be the one to stand back up and try again. I do. So here's for today... Life happened and it surely was a lesson and truly a blessing.

Calm..

So today was lazy. Do you ever have those days when you just know you need to do things but your body needs to rest? That's basically my day. I was in bed until 1 this afternoon. I did some laundry and ate a late lunch. I continued to eat a snack of carrots and strawberries here and there! Then I would lay in bed again. I watched YouTube and just let my mind relax and laugh and breathe today. I did homework last minute and now I'm just enjoying the low lighting of my office. I made some hot tea and I decided it was a perfect time to write what's on my mind and how my day went. My day was filled with rain and sweet dewy mist coming through my window screen. It was filled with music. All kinds of music calming me to where I couldn't stand it. Filled with laughter and smiling faces; my day was one I needed. My day has almost ended, for it is night time and my tea is becoming cooler by the minute. I hope your day was peaceful. Have sweet dreams if you're reading this! Remember please that you're loved. <3

Marcia Louise

3/24/13

not much to think about.. yeah right.

Today I have not much to write about...been a few days...maybe a few weeks. Life is busy. Busy, not really a thing, but takes away from all the good sometimes that you really want and need in life. Busy. What is busy? Why are we all so Busy? It's like ingrained in us to constantly be doing something. No time for rest. No time for reading, laughing, singing, dreaming, or sleeping. Sleep... sleep has been lost. Oh well! part of life i guess you could say. less nights spent up too late... talking... thinking. Overthinking. Lost in your thoughts. That is the worst....
You think so much that it leads to other things... whatever that may be. You search through your mind and your day. You find things good or not so good. YOu process them and decide,"Hey I think i wanna be in a certain mood now because I'm just thinking too much and i really just want and need attention". Honestly, we can all say we've done this. It's like every night and it can be good. Idt can also hurt you. Hurtothers. I don't know. Not too sure. This is me over thinking once again.A busy human lost in wonder of the  everyday world. I guess it's just me. no it's probably not. ha... So this is whawt happens when there isn't anything much to WRITE ABOUT. Enjoy your day... or try to!

Just Enough? Thinking? Try it...

 

 When you sit at home for a while, you have a lot of time to think. It gives you time to think too much. Too much of something can be a bad thing unless its the right kind and it ends up being just enough. Just Enough... those two words are two words I can't stand, yet I basically do daily. I should really take my own advice, but people who give advice usually never take their own... ha that wouldn't be right! In this case I give you just enough to know why you shouldn't be JUST ENOUGH. It's like me trying to tell you to not be... well... me! What I mean by that is I rush through things and don't ever really challenge myself to certain subjects in life. I have gotten out of my little "bubble" and my comfort zone is totally zoned out! It's bonkers... (haha bonkers). I want to tell you to think tonight when you sit down and the commercials are on t.v. Mute those pesky things and think even for a second, about yourself, where you are in life, where you are going in life, where you want to go in life, and what you could see yourself doing. I want you to think about if you are doing good enough, if you are trying your hardest at whatever it is you do, if you are trying your BEST in that area, and if you can try even just a little harder. I want you to think tonight; I don't care where it is you do this "thinking", but please take the time for YOURSELF and think. Are you JUST ENOUGH? Are you NOT enough? Are you MORE than enough? Whatever YOU are... just TRY please. Trying may not always get you somewhere but it sure does get you a whole lot closer than NOT trying at all. Don't be "just enough"; don't be like I can be. Be ALL that YOU can and TRY your HARDEST in WHATEVER it is you DO because let me tell you something, you.... are.... awesome. Just try! Just think! Don't be just enough. Be more than enough!

Chosen, Love, Trust...

You chose blue lips... You chose pale face. You chose rose colored cheeks and skin of satin until you reach the hands. You chose soft eyes; eyes that hold a smokey hazel green and flecks of chestnut brown. You chose small; small petite pear shaped figure that sometimes only a mother could love. You chose rough arms and scratched up knees. You chose gentle fingertips that graize through your delicate mind. You chose sweet toes and cracking heels. These heels took me to who you are. Thing is, I can't quite understand why? Why someone like that could CHOOSE someone like this. Why have you chosen so quickly? You chose wisely because of this heart. This old soul I hold; these bold feelings I contain, all are shining into you. God does some magical things... So far he has created me and billions of others. I, being unique, have put myself out in the world searching for comfort, care, and love. Age... We all base love on "age" but does it really matter? You can LOVE God. You can LOVE your parents. You can LOVE your friends. You can LOVE someone you barely even know. You can LOVE someone you care for; someone you think of or dream of, you can LOVE. What I'm trying to say is LOVE comes in many forms. Mine is in so many it's hard to keep up with. When you think to yourself who you love think of who LOVES YOU! Also, think of why they chose you? God chose me. I wonder what else will choose me? Maybe a college? Maybe a major? Maybe a song to sing? Maybe a boy.... Maybe. Whatever and whoever it is, I trust and I choose and I Love. 

So, questions of today. Who do you choose? Who do you love? Who do you trust! Who chooses you?

-Marcia H. 

2/25/13 

Marcia? A Blogger?

Wait. What's this? Marcia Hall; is she starting a blog? Yes! I have been told for a while that my Facebook posts were very relatable and truthful. I post what's on my mind. I try to always keep it positive! Its just how I roll. So since I was told this, I just decided to create a blog and post my feelings here! I hope all works out because honestly I would love to share my thoughts and feelings with others. Who knows, my life may relate to others. I don't know exactly what I'll be posting all together, but I'm positive it will all fall into place soon enough! If you're reading this, Thank You!!! If you like what you read, tell your friends! I'll try to post everyday, but no PROMISES!
 
Stay Classy,
  Marcia